The Act of Killing by Jane Wong


 

It is early and I have no one to trust.
 
The sun wrestles wildly about me,
 
throwing light in unbearable places.
 
Each day, I wear this necklace of flares,
 
bright kicks against the throat. Each day,
 
the earth wobbles in its orbit. I am
 
in the process of creating an army.
 
A hive mind, honeyed in the eyes and
 
pure in purpose. Wasps drone among
 
roses I stole from my grandfather’s
 
headstone. Drones watch as my father
 
kills a man over a bad bet. He presses
 
the man’s head down into a floor flooded
 
with enough bills to build a country.
 
Covered in warm towels, my father drones
 
in his sleep. He sends a telegram to me:
 
I could have been a mathematician.
 
Equal signs multiply across state lines,
 
dividers of the familiar. Surveillance works
 
like this: stop. Intentions drag through
 
the mud, daily. The spoiled sun runs
 
its yolk. I run my mouth all over town.
 
All around me, the grievance tree weeps
 
with wasps. For, what is a bullet without
 
an arm to go through? I cross and cradle
 
my arms. When the sun goes down,
 
I check my eyes to see if they are still there.

 
 
 

Jane Wong‘s poems have appeared in places such as Mid-American Review, Eleven Eleven, The Volta, Hayden’s Ferry Review, Salt Hill, Best New Poets 2012, and others. She holds a MFA from the University of Iowa and is the recipient of fellowships from the Bread Loaf Writers’ Conference, Kundiman, the Fine Arts Work Center, and the U.S. Fulbright Program.